homesick

it's not what you think. in my case, being homesick means i'm getting sick of staying at home!!! i thought this was going to be a fun summer, i just feel like i'm not making the most out of it. i mean it's almost halfway over and the farthest location i've been to is the mall...not even to shop or watch a movie even! just to hang around!

if the plans were made earlier, i should be i china now. but alas, i'm not. and if only my sister didn't get sick! oooh i could crumple that little piece of sister of mine...her hospital bills summed up to 25,000 pesos. i mean we could've had a beach outing out of that! but noooo, all that went to medicine. sigh...and as usual, it's me that the elders picked on as the king prevails all odds once more. my brother arranged this outing with his classmates and they all went to zambales along with two of my cousins. i would looooooooove to go to zambales. however not with his classmates. the night before they left, my sister and mother started texting me all this messages saying why the two of us were such pasaways. what?! i'm not the one going to zambales! i would like to go, true, but not at the expense of anyone! it's quite odd that in this family, having fun is such a sin, and is strictly forbidden. especially when someone is sick. and guess what, my mom, when we saw each other the following night, asked me "why didn't you go with your brother?" what!? you're the one who told me not to!!!! argh what a family...

i miss my dad. my adventurous and fun dad. but not just my dad coz going to hongkong alone with my dad doesn't solve that. i miss my dad being around here, having a complete family here. my dad would never tolerate my bother's behavior, and would bring some life and excitement to my mother and sister. damn.

I WANT TO GO TO THE BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEACH!!!

summer bummer

finally, the freaking sem is over. actually it ended last week pa but i got so sick of my pc after doing that research paper that it took me a week to recover haha. i just hope that everything goes fine from here on out. i know i made a lot of daya in that research paper so i hope she doesn't find out and i still get a good grade. anyway, i really don't wanna talk about acads anymore. i have the whole summer free from any schoolwork (for the first time in college!)

anyway, summer is still a bummer coz we hardly have any activity, we just stay at home and literally bum around. i was looking forward to beaches or tour but alas, none of them's happened yet. tita cora's been inviting us endless times to go over to their beach for a swim but my mom and sister, just don't have the time so they say, and i figure they don't really want to go (my mom coz of the overspending issue, and my sister with her insecurity issue) but i reeeeally want to go and i've been toiling all sem for this!!! sigh, but it's ok if we don't go. i just hope that it's not a "never" situation. i'll still be looking forward to it. then there's that china tour. i would've loved to go there but i guess it's too late. besides, i wanna go there with my family so that it would be easier to move around, as opposed to going alone with my younger cousins whom i still need to look after. maybe next year...

anyway, i'm supposed to gain weight this summer. i've already gained 5 pounds and i hope i go on until i reach 150 pounds (hey a guy can dream can't he?) i have 6 weeks left. another thing, i really need to get a lisence and start learning how to drive. grrr...if only the pass sem didn't stress me out! oh well gotta push though with my plans now. i'll catcha later.

almost done...but not quite.

jeez i duno how much of this sem i can still take!!! all my requirements are pretty much done and all there is left to do is wait for my merciful professors to give me my responding grades. except for this one dastardly subject which is research!!! i would've been oficially on vacation today but noooo...i still have to make this long research paper due on friday. i'm dying to get it over with so that i could pursue with my plans for the summer. remember last year? well most of my plans then weren't successful, but now that i absolutely don't have to go to UP all summer, i think i have a better chance of fulfilling them this time. plus my mom asked me not to go to china for now since it's really not the right time. it works for me coz i get my own laptop instead!!! yay! here are my plans for now:

- learn how to DRIVE!!!
- gain back my weight, and gain some more! i really need to workout.
- paint more paintings
- watch my favorite shows
- movie, movie, movie
- beach!!!
- more to follow.