another missed shot

Creativity is allowing yourself to make mistakes. Art is knowing which ones to keep. ~ Dilbert

got home at midnight yet again. it's been a long and stressful day. spent the whole of last night until this afternoon figuring out contour lines for our MLP and at the same time doing some landscaping. i dunno, i really don't like landscaping. i mean i appreciate it, i like seeing well structured gardens, it's just that i don't think i have what it takes to design one. i feel like my creativity is being dampened by all these restrictions the site has. but that was the task given to me, and like it or not, i had to come up with it before today ended. thank god for josh and wu who helped me out. i couldn't have done everything by myself in time. i hate it when i feel incapable of doing what is asked of me. it gets me all stressed out. anyway, at least i got to experience doing it. besides, i can only learn from it so i'll just charge that to experience. it just really sucks knowing that all these schemes that we did are still going to change after their meeting tomorrow...there's just waaaay too many schemes already, it's crazy...

and since i was stuck at the office all night, i missed another chance to go out with AG...last time i got held up in a meeting so i wasn't able to go to lunch with her. tonight, we were supposed to go with her to artshops to buy some copic markers, then have dinner after. but alas, i had work. she and pat went ahead. they couldn't find an open artshop so they just ended up in central for dinner and lkf for some drinks. damn. oh well at least i had my teammates with me instead of being alone in the office. it makes it a little bit more bearable knowing that all of us are feeling the same way haha.

i missed home today. i noticed that i miss home when i don't like being at work. it's when i feel most vulnerable and i long for my comfort zone.

beijing olympic high

I have the opportunity to be part of swimming history. To take the sport to a new level would be an honor for me. There's no better time to try this than now. ~ Michael Phelps

this weekend was basically spent watching whatever's left of the beijing 2008 olympic games. i'm so bummed that i missed most of the events that i usually enjoy watching. i would've wanted to catch the judo events, gymnastics, tennis, swimming, (of course who would wanna miss michael phelps making olympic history), and of course the opening ceremony. i did catch some of the gold medal events though. congratulations to matthew mitcham for grabbing the gold for the 10m dive even though everyone was expecting the two chinese divers to run away with it like they always do. hooray for the US men's volleyball team for winning against the defending champions brazil! twas a really exciting match and i was literally at the edge of my seat.

watching the closing ceremonies, i just can't help but be emotional. for the past 7 months, i've been in surrounded with olympic hype. and just 16 days have past since it began, it has officially ended. seeing all those athletes come together celebrating the olympic spirit just felt like they were in a world party. such a great sight. and being chinese, it just makes me so proud of how china executed everything. this is the olympics to beat. i believe it'll be a while before any other host could outdo what the chinese has done. bird's nest and the water cube alone will be very hard to surpass.

i hope i can get a hold of olympic highlights still. i feel like i'm going to have a hangover for quite a while after this weekend. and it sucks that i have to get back to work again. this whole s.a.d. thing hasn't completely left yet so i still dread going back to work...i guess i'll just have to roll with the dice.

oh before i forget, happy birthday to sir mel! he treated us to dinner last night with the rest of his family. such a great man haha! and great food! twas my first time to eat at tony roma's. absolutely delicious.

nuri day

Sometimes i wish that i was the weather, you'd bring me up in any conversation forever. And when it rained, I'd be the talk of the day. ~ John Mayer

typhoon nuri finally arrived. i was still skeptical this morning though because the rain wasn't that hard and i could hear buses outside. but true enough the signal 8 was brought up and even escalated to signal 9 upto this moment. apparently it was really windy outside, there was even a case where an entire bamboo scaffolding collapsed. so i guess having no work today was just right. loving the rain, but not really loving the boredom. hong kong can be really dead during typhoons, everything's closed, everyone's inside, and there's nothing to do.

good news though, our tv antenna's fixed! and we're getting clear reception of all local channels so i'll get to catch some good US series like heroes, grey's anatomy, house, prisonbreak and several others. and of course, the olympics!!! or at least what's left of it. it truly sucks that i didn't get to watch the more interesting events of the olympics, including the opening ceremony. oh and a lot of these athletes are hot!!! it only adds to how bummed i am that i missed most of the beijing olympics...

i'm kind of getting tired of having only my roommate as company during the weekends. we seldom even talk anymore haha. we're usually glued to our laptops, just surfing away. i miss my family, and having a large group of friends...now that i've thought about it, i should've gone to shenzhen last night. but alas, i'm stuck here with roomie...i'll probably just go next week. shit this uncertainty is a total killer.

s.a.d...

i'm surrounded by all these people, yet i've never felt more alone. ~ kyle xy

i'm sad. i have s.a.d...or seating arrangement depression...the HR department sent out the memo today, and my request didn't make the cut. i'll be staying where i am...sigh, if only i sent out an email earlier...if only my director didn't go on his annual leave this week...if only that friggin' AH didn't get the seat i was gunning for...

if only i were king (or in this case supremo) i would have it like this:

JOC

CP

COL - DW JY - FSY

KKS - DY AH - CHW

JOL - JVC DAL - AC

RYL - CT HXY - GN

PP - LS

HH - WQF

KT - PBA VL

AF - ES

but of course that's not the case nor will it ever be. too many relocations. but this s.a. would be perfect....but i'm not king. damn. it's hard enough that i don't speak the language fluently or understand a lot of it, do i really have to sit so far away from my teammates? fine, i'm with my fellow pinoy...but they're all together in one project! i'm the only one from team john who's sitting away from everyone else...i love working for john, and i like my project team...it just sucks that i can't relate to the people i'm sitting next to coz i'm the only one from the other team. i so wanna sit with the rest of my teammates...so bad. i really should've sent out an email earlier...i mean CT, GN and DY got relocated, why can't i??? i've been there longer! fudge. i just feel so freakin distant. oh well, i might get a shot at JY's seat. that's not exactly what i was hoping for, but if they give me that, i guess i'll have to do with it. or just opt to stay put. argh, i so dread this day...shallow as it may sound, i'm sad...and S.A.D. is a bitch.

in other news, today's ninoy day in the philippines. next week will be heroes day. a lot of holidays back home. i hope we get ours tomorrow. where the hell is that storm, what's taking it so long?

score!!!

The key is not the "will to win" . . . everybody has that. It is the will to prepare to win that is important. ~ Bob Knight

i was reading a friend's blog this morning and i was amused at how he manages to update it almost daily. so it sort of inspired me to resurrect my journal which has been in hiatus for more than three years now.

i've been occasionally posting some entries on multiply, but it's not really a place to really write more private thoughts. it's easier to filter friends here.

so here we go. it's been almost eight months, things are getting pretty routinary. work has been interesting though despite being hectic at times. i'm fortunate enough to have a good set of teammates working with me. john is on his annual leave and won't be back till next week. needless to say, work still has to be done, but at least there's less pressure. i'm really hoping that my request be granted once he gets back. and i hope it's a right decision on my part as well.

gox has left for canada yesterday. it's kind of weird hearing that they opted to break up. it's hard to imagine one without the other. i miss those guys (i am their official third wheel). i mean i'm over here in hong kong and yet i felt really sad by her leaving. i just wish her the best and hope that one day we'll do have this grand reunion.

i'm supposed to claim my entry visa to china tomorrow and go home to shenzhen this weekend. i'm still on the fence though. i've only been there twice, and both times my dad was there with me. this is going to be the first time i go there alone with the rest of the stepfamily. i guess it can't be that bad, i have grown closer to my step siblings. plus i should've gone last week to celebrate my kid brother's birthday, but i totally forgot, so i need to make it up to him. we'll see. depends on how i wake up on saturday. otherwise, i'll just go there on my dad's birthday next month.

got to catch the PBA finals in boracay grill. wow what a game. i haven't seen a game in a very long time, but being a barangay ginebra fan apparently doesn't fade. it was so exciting to see menk, tubid, alexander and artadi play. it was a really close game, but ginebra took it home. whoot-whooo!!!

that's it for now. i should really follow my curfew...i'm already an hour late. i'll try to update this as often as i can.

summer 06

summer na! well after this comprehensive exem we have to take and in case i get exempted form structures exam...plans: take summer class (PI 100) get a job (arki student assistant) see my dad (in hong kong) eat and sleep well (in prep of a hellish schoolyear i'm sure is coming) thesis naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!

breaktime

hell season is over for now at least...plates are starting to pile up again though. better get them started as early as possible. i need to make it ahabit to work ahead of time. very important come thesis year...

looking back, i just wish i've been more active during my previous years. i should've joined a bunch of competitions, even though i wasn't expecting to win...i should've run for councilor for asc...should've joined af earlier...should've taken up cad and 3d lessons early on...should've invested more on books...tons of shoulda, woulda, couldas.....the story of my life...