virus alert!

my pc has been infected for the longest time and i barely had time to install the antivirus program. i wasn't even planning to install it now but i decided to cut my online time to take care of this trojan virus first before it infects my entire pc. thus, this blog entry's gonna be shorter than i planned.

the past two weeks were quite harsh. we spent days working on the design plate over at marj's place. it was ok but it was evident that our professor wasn't all pleased with our work. he was quite disappointed but kept saying, "pero ok lang..." which we didn't really know what he eant by that...i have the rest of my thoughts on this on my written journal (see i don't have free unlimited access to the net in my dorm that's why i still write, but only when i really feel like it.) anyway, i was paired with hilary for the next plate, i didn't really have a choice coz we were the only ones who were left without a partner, see the couples went ahead and paired up, so what's the single people to do? i'm not even sure if hilary wants me as her pair but to be honest i'm not sure if i want her coz it puts a lot of pressure on me to measure up (i've had very lousy design profs...she on the other hand is an excellent designer) i need to contribute a lot...i'd better...

now there's the issue with my mom, i kind of left something i wrote about my feelings about her favoritism lying in my bedroom...i was hoping she'd find it and read it..that moment at least...coz after a while i felt kind of guilty but it was too late, i had already gone to school and i wasn't going home til the weekend. so she did get a hold of it...but she did something i know i should've expected she would do...she showed it to my siblings, my aunts, and god knows who else! and i said to myself oh shit that wasn't part of the plan! i haven't really met up with my siblings as of now but my sister has told me she felt for me...my mom's been extra nice since then, i dunno if it is sincere coz she finally knows my feelings, or it's just for the meantime while she feels i'm still sensitive about it. i dunno, we'll see.

watched a movie with couple friends today. i didn't really enjoy it as much...at least as much as i did back in the earlier days of college. one, the movie (very long engagement) was good but it was indeed very "literary" as they all say. it had subtitles, for cryin out loud! i don't mind foreign films, it's just that i wasn't really in the mood for one today when i really just wanted to relax and have fun. i haven't seen a movie since the incredibles (would you believe?) since there's simply no time to go! i always find myself beig left in the house drafting while my folks or friends would go watch a movie...and now that i finally got to see one, i fell asleep midway...i didn't get the story...i'll just catch it on video next time. i wanted to see the fockers, but they didn't or had already. two, i'm single, with four couples, period. oh well, i guess being single with couple friends is better that being single all by myself buying dvds as i had initially planned.

oh, while we were in polo's car, he suddenly asked me, "why do you think you're anti-social?" or something like that. i pretended i didn't hear to avoid answering it. then after a while i thought, hey maybe these guys found out about my new blog already! oh well...what can i do if they did, it is on the web after all...but still now i feel like i need to be cautious of what i write here (this soon...) i would tell them about this later on anyway after i've written a lot of entries already (and edited them)...anyway, i didn't think i was anti-social...i do now. is that how he sees me? or is it because he's read my blog? whatever...hey i'm working on it, i don't wanna be anti-social. no good architect is anyway. more on this on my written journal as well.

okay, i have to cut this short, it's 1 am and i need my sleep. it's a long weekend but it's loaded as well so i'd better get some shut-eye. good night! til next time.